i have a few things on my mind
mum yelled at me this morning because i dont have a social life and barely any friends in real life.
it really upset me, its not my fault that people think im weird. and its not my fault that im apparently 3 years behind in my head.
shes like why dont you call elizabeth or talk to stephanie and arrange something and im just too lazy to call elizabeth. its a horrible habit.
but she doesnt get that stephanies barely ever online and i find it hard to know when shes home so i can call her or when her sisters not on the phone. mum reckons the only thing i talk about too, is music. i talk about music, yes. but not all the time. i have celebrities, movies, tv shows, music, games and other shit to talk about. not just music. she suggested that i go to softball next weekend and talk to some girls who've apparently wanted to meet me and like the same bands i do. i bet we'll have nothing in common except a few bands. and then they'll complain to mum that all i'd talk about was music.
then later today, lucia started questioning me on my social life. and then i made things awkward in the convo josh added me to.
and because im so weird, i have barely any friends, barely anyone likes me, ive kinda been contemplating death.
but i couldnt be able to bring myself to do it myself. maybe someone should chuck me into a fire.
i mean if im dead, and had barely any friends, barely any family that actually cared, whos gonna like kill themselves over my death?
id probably get backstabbed even more after death. good to know i wont be missed.
i hate feeling like this though.
someone attempt to make me feel better?
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